"Because here is where You're finding me, in the exact same place as New Year's Eve.
And from a lack of my persistency,
We're less than half as close as I want to be."
Every year, I realize that I should be a lot closer to God than I am. It's sort of depressing in a way, but on the other hand, it usually inspires me to do better. This past year, my eyes have been opened to a lot of things, and because of some stuff that has happened, I feel like I've picked up some cynical, sarcastic, and unloving ways. There are so many ways that I need to improve. But don't get me wrong, it has been, overall, a good year. I had to depend on God more than ever before this past summer, when I was stressed, terrified, and confused over what to do with my future. But I made a decision, and although some things are still a little foggy, I know I'm going in the right direction. And that's such a relief.
I don't make technical New Year's resolutions anymore (because it's only that much more depressing when I find myself eating cheesecake instead of walking on the treadmill), but I do always make a few goals to work toward. In 2010, I want to:
-Grow closer to God than I've ever been before.
-Become more like my Savior than I ever thought possible.
-Stop procrastinating and wasting time on things that really don't matter.
-Do my best in school and keep up my A average.
-Make a simple quilt for my bed.
-Sew a dress that fits me perfectly.